My Butterfly Effect…
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It has been a continuous struggle, yet with strength required now more than ever as I sit here and write through complete honesty using what i like to call “My Butterfly Effect”. The battle rages on as I fight to find my place in this world. I’m not suicidal & I don’t believe that life has no meaning… this is way beyond that. This is a fight to know what I am destined for and what is to bring me great enjoyment as well as financial success. I shall begin writing my novel… a story of captivating, devastating, and boring events that have led me to this very moment in my existence. This moment that is pushing me to question my destiny and the path I want and need from this point forward.
Paths are constantly changing which will inevitably keep this novel of mine flowing for the remainder of my existence if I so choose. What a glorious, yet frightening concept – one of many this crazy fun world has to offer. Yet before I begin, my first step is to ask for forgiveness in advance – forgiveness for any feelings that are hurt as a result of such truths. Let me apologize for my lack of “fragileness” through these words as I have to force myself to be somewhat brutally honest to come to the conclusions and open-heartedness my soul desires at this very moment in my life.
There’s no editing this story and no grammatical corrections to be made – this is my story and the mistakes to be seen are mistakes that have brought about life-changing lessons. I wouldn’t change those if I could! I believe with all of my might the worlds that are meant to appear before you and me are just as my heart intends and what my soul desires!
Through my written display of my own personal “Butterfly Effect” I hope with all of my might to find the purity and the truths my existence has been questioning. From here I uncross my fingers and begin my journey in written format… the brutal truth of my “butterfly effect”. Wish me luck as I embark on this journey that is destined to be emotional, satisfying, joyful, and extremely revealing!
Until next time…
*Ryan’s Butterfly*
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